Sunday, April 1, 2012

"It's true we'll make a better day, just you and me."

Everyday thousands of babies are born too soon... And as you know I happen to be the proud mama of one of those babies.

But you should know some things about having a preemie that I don't talk about very often...

When you have a baby that is born weighing 3lbs 7 oz, you don't know what to expect...


She spends week's in the hospital...


...and you spend weeks of nights at home alone without your baby.

You don't know what you're up against...


...what the future holds...


...or what therapies she'll need...


...but you're pretty sure nothing is ever going to come easy for her. It's hard to just enjoy your daughter for who she is because you're so worried for her future.


But you DO enjoy her!


You have tons of happy days...


...and silly moments...


...and great times.


But there are times that you can't help but wonder, "What if?"  I will never forget, after she was born, I asked her neonatologist, "Why did she come so early?" 


And his answer was, "I don't know.  That's why we have the March of Dimes."

So, HEY YOU!


Yeah, you!

I'm asking that you donate $10 to the March of Dimes and help us support their mission to end premature birth by donating to our walk on April 29th. 
And if you feel strongly about it like I do, try to get your friends involved too.


Lend a hand...


And help the babies!  I'll make this easy.

You can donate here.

Or Here.

Or HERE!

She's come a long way, baby.  And we're sure proud of our little lady.


(And thank you SO much to those of you who have already donated!)

Sunday, March 25, 2012

“And so if by tonight, the bar closes, and you feel like falling down…”

What a whirlwind few months we’ve had!! I don’t even know where to begin. 
Sarai just finished her three week program at Leaps and Bounds. They call it “intense physical therapy,” and boy let me tell you… it was INTENSE!! Adam took her every day all the way to Queens for this. She is stronger, more flexible, and totally RIPPED. Her abs could make Mike “the Situation” jealous, and this jumping move will have her “jersey turnpiking” with Snookie before she knows what hit her.


(And this honestly doesn't show you how much she loved jumping,
it was the only part of the program she really liked.) 

We’ll have a lot of work to do to keep this flexibility and strength.  I’ve been in the process of trying to get her some PT at a facility once a week so we’ll have access to some of their cool equipment.  So, add that to the list of therapies; that would put little miss Sarai up to 13 therapies a week!  I’m tired just thinking about it.  Zzzzzzzzzz….. 


 I'm glad we're back to business as usual.
Both Sarai and Caleb are getting stronger each day.  I really think they’re in a competition against each other.  Sarai sees Caleb head to the stairs…

 … she heads for the stairs.
Caleb sees Sarai pull to stand…
… he pulls to stand.
And then there are the sit-offs…
I love it!
Sarai will be beginning preschool this summer, and I’m pretty nervous about it.  Her evaluation begins this week and we’ll meet the first week in May to decide how long she’ll go for, what therapies she’ll have, if she’ll have an aide.  We’ll see.  Yvonne (ever the angel) has been very flexible and will be helping out in a BIG way to get Sarai to her appointments.  Yvonne, you’re the best!
Yvonne is also awesome because she joined our team “Tough Little Peanut” and is walking with us to support the March of Dimes.  Last time we walked we raised just over $1000!  So I set my goal high, and am hoping we can meet that again.  Today is CP Awareness Day!  Make a $10 donation to our team, support the March of Dimes and help to end premature birth! 
Click and donate.  I’ll get off my soapbox (for now)…
And just because we can never stop when it comes to our girl… we found yet another program we will probably look in to for her.  A parent of a child attending Leaps and Bounds suggested it to Adam, said it was AMAZING and gave him a card.  The treatment is called “neurological reorganization,” and it’s all about stimulating the brain by bringing it back to the beginning stages of development.  The stimulation happens through different movements which directly stimulate the cerebral cortex, beginning with army crawling.  I sat in on a teleconference with the guy who runs the program (in MA) and am pretty interested.  Adam spoke to him Friday night.  I think it’s just another thing where we say, “What if??  What if this is the thing??”  It would mean cancelling our trip to see Dr. Escolar in PA over spring break, but I think that right now, a trip to  MA would give us more information, and more strategies.  It sounds like it’s going to be a LOT of work, that they’ll want her diet changed, our cleaners and laundry detergents changed all natural… it sounds like a lot.  I’m overwhelmed just thinking about it.  But, like everything, how can we say no?  Who can say no to this smile?
So we have a trip, several doctors’ appointments, evaluations, meetings, PT eval, regular therapies, a march for babies, the always present fight with insurance companies, and visiting preschools all in the next month.  My plate is FULL FULL FULL.  Keep  your fingers crossed that we’ll make it through April!



Sunday, January 29, 2012

“Can I sail through the changing ocean tides? Can I handle the seasons of my life?”

Umm, yes, I can.

Well I’m glad that’s over with!  You may or may not know, Sarai was supposed to be admitted into the hospital for an EEG last Sunday in Hackensack, NJ.  Mom came down to watch Caleb...

I took a few days off from work, we were all set… and they had no room to take her.  Not on Monday either… or Tuesday.  Wednesday they called and said to get her there in an hour.  I ran out of school, literally running, threw everything in the car as fast as I could and high-tailed it down to NJ. 

This was a dreaded (DREADED) appointment.  I didn’t want to hear that she was having seizures, that they would want to give her medication, vitals every 4 hours, bad food… I thought it was all overkill.  PLUS, when we got down there I realized the only bra I had packed was the one I was wearing!  Not good.  Thank goodness it was a good one.  When you’re in the hospital with your child you need all the support you can get.

It was a rough couple days, but we’re glad it was only a couple days.  Sarai isn’t having seizures, but she IS having abnormal brain activity, “spikes,” and sometimes LOTS of them (like, one per second at times when she’s sleeping).  We were totally against medication, but we caved, and I think it’s the right decision.  We emailed Dr. Escolar to get her opinion and she felt that we should try it, they all suggested Keppra, so that’s what she’s on.  It could cause some mood changes, or it could actually help her learn or be more relaxed if the spikes calm down.  (Prayers, please!) 
Nerve racking.  There are no right answers.  It just kills me.  The talk with the neurologist went something like,

“We don’t know what the spikes mean.  It could mean she’s going to have seizures, it could not.  It might be holding her back cognitively, maybe not.  Maybe she’s uncomfortable, we don’t just know.  There is no literature to say giving medication will prevent seizures, but I think there’s something to it.  Maybe, no one can say for sure, it’s worth a try.” 
Conversations like this one are what make me SCREAM at the TV when I watch Grey’s Anatomy, a show where everyone has an answer, and doctors are willing to go the extra mile and think outside the box.  The writers on those shows are pretty creative.
(Should she get a break from doing PT just because she's in the hospital...
not a chance!)

I do have to say, Hackensack Hospital totally rocked.  The nurses were great, Child Life came and set up mats for Sarai to play on the floor, they gave us finger paints, we all kept busy.  Of course the iPad was never far.



Caleb stayed with Yvonne, thank goodness we knew he was well taken care of (probably spoiled out of his mind!). 

Sitting is going well, for both of the kids…

 (Face off!)

And you might have seen Caleb’s perfect plank on facebook…

This kid could have taught the “correct alignment” section of my group fitness certification class.

We’ll have more EEG’s to come for Sarai, we’re starting the intense physical therapy program for 3 weeks in March, and we’re hoping to take her to Pittsburgh in April to meet with Dr. Escolar and have an MRI (she hasn’t had one in over a year and a half).  Busy, busy. 
(Mall rat!)

Anyone know how to move a giant swing set??  Take it apart, put it back together and create a playtime wonderland in our backyard?  Uncle Tom and Aunt Theresa have one we could have, but I have no idea how to tackle a project like that. 

Back to business as usual for us!  Love you guys!


Friday, January 20, 2012

"When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change!"

TGIF!  Just in time for Saturday, we're getting 7 inches of snow.  It just.... isn't.... right!  ONE snow day this school year so far and it was in SEPTEMBER!! 

Any-hoo, just thought I'd let you guys know what's going on these days.  Sarai had an evaluation for a three week intensive therapy program, and she rocked it.  And they gave us some great ideas to help her get stronger.  We've been working really hard on some new things; standing with splints, sitting with sandbags for support...

... and without!  Her progress sitting has been AMAZING. 

We've got the poor kid doing (usually) 60 sit-ups a day, she can't help but (reluctantly) get stronger!  The therapy will be in March, and we're pretty stoked.

The yucky EEG news follow-up... we're headed to Hackensack Hospital on Sunday for a "24-Hour" EEG.  It will be 1-3 days.  I'm going to assume that it will be at least 3 days.  As Adam says, this ain't our first rodeo, we kind of know what to expect.  Our doctor seems to think nothing of walking into a room, waving his hand, saying, "One more day," and walking out.  This is going to be a rough few days.  Last time Sarai had this done it was grueling, so think of her now bigger, stronger, and resistant as ever.  At 12 months old this kid could get out of a gauze head wrap like no other...

Aug. 2010
Within a few hours of being wrapped up...

Houdini's got nothing on this kid.  We'll let you know how this all turns out.  I've been in contact with Dr. Escolar (formerly from UNC, now at the children's hospital in Pittsburgh), and we're pretty ready for a second opinion from her and her team.  I'll probably be in touch with them next week to let them know what they're saying the EEG says.

Caleb turned 6 months old!  He's sitting better too. 

And smiley as ever.


Sorry to end this on a sad note, but I've got to mention that two tiny kids, two VERY brave little souls, that I've been praying for and following their blogs, passed away last weekend.  Rest in peace Gracie and Tripp, and I'm continuing to pray that your families will be able to find comfort in knowing that you're not suffering any longer. 

We'll keep you guys updated about what happens next week at the hospital.  Fingers crossed!  Say some prayers please (for Gracie and Tripp's families too!)!


Monday, January 2, 2012

"To where we are, where we've been, said we'd do it all again, remember when..."

Time to lighten the mood after yesterday's post.  Last  night our friend and babysitter, Yvonne/an-angel-on-this-earth, took the kids for us while we went out on a much needed date night and got me out of a little funk, THANK YOU!!  Everyone is posting about looking back on their year, so I guess I'll jump on that band wagon and take a little walk down the 2011 Memory Lane.  It was a good one...

Jan...
We're going to have a little friend in a few months!


Feb...
The impossible happened... after waiting on this very house for years, we bought the house we LOVED!

March...
We moved into that beautiful house and we found out...

April...
Sarai started a playgroup...


 ...got her gait trainer (she looks like such a baby here!)...


 ... and got all dolled up for Easter.

May...
Sarai ate ice cream...

(look, nothing else really went on in May!  Sometimes it's nice to just celebrate uneventful months!)
June...
I got to be the size of a house...

(I will not post a picture of me looking like a walrus.)

...and we realized how much Sarai loved water...

July...
This is where we got busy!

Sarai turned 2...


... had her first round of Botox and got her AFO's...

(Snazzy is, as snazzy does.)

... And we welcomed Caleb into our family!


August...
Caleb decided to try out the new hospital for a few days...


 ... he was baptized during hurricane Irene...


 ... and Sarai started hippotherapy with a super-snazzy helmet!

September...
Umm, we made cookies?...


 October...
I went back to work, we did a few fall things with the kids...


... and of course went trick or treating!

November...
Another uneventful month...

(But gait training in the unusually warm weather was fun.)

December...
We met our new nephew, Luke...

(Is he a tiny little peanut or what??)

... and of course celebrated Christmas with the family!


So that's it in a nutshell.  Before we know it, Caleb will be turning 1 and Sarai will be in preschool!  2012 will be an exciting one! 

Cheers!